...I was on my way to Germany to celebrate first my birthday and then Christmas with my family. I left basically on my last day of college, having just completed my teaching credential and basically ready to take on the world one classroom at a time.
Today, no doubt brought on by The Sick (which makes me whiny and emotional and eight shades of delightful to be around), I'm wallowing in the sinkhole of professional disillusionment. Consider:
1. I've more or less hated every job I've had since graduating (and that's four, my friends) for not being that of a classroom teacher (among other things).
2. I've been rejected by school district after school district - so many times, in fact, that I've lost count. And even though it's not supposed ot be personal, it really is. Being a teacher is important to me personally, so if I'm rejected as a teacher, I'm rejected as a person.
3. The job I currently hold is a total joke: Out of 11 days I've worked there (lots of short weeks due to holidays etc.), I've done what they hired me for exactly twice. That's less than 20%.
4. The prospects are dire.
What seems to happen a lot is that when a position opens up, districts hire people who have been subbing for them. I currently have ONE district that knows me, but since I'm in a long-term committment, they wouldn't be able to hire me at a different school, even if something opened up. On top of that, I don't want to work for this district. It's too big, too poor (because their financial priorities are all screwed up, if you ask me), too crazy.
I just called in sick for the rest of the week. My first choice would be to never go back there.